Coincidences

Crazy coincidences 101 is what's going on. At first I'm like 'should I notice this? It's just a coincidence'. But then the events begin to fit in. Not like a jig saw puzzle,  but more like the bars of a ladder. And when you finally see it,  it would be unnatural not to climb it,  not take that leap of faith. Without a doubt, it feels right internally. Well externally, 'externally' is just chaos. Even though the brain makes it look otherwise.
Let's take the example of this, me writing this. An internal feeling sprung up a couple of years back,  not about writing as such but more about 'purpose'. Along with the 'why am I here?' question, a feeling of 'I need to help others, others like the old me' came along.  Old me,  who was unaware, lost in Maya and wanted help, direction and answers. But then the brain would take over despite all the 'oms' and mediations. Creepy little thing would convince me, 'who are you anyways?  Why would anyone listen to you? You don't have the time.' And most dominating thought of all,  which snuck somewhere without even words, was just formless fear, deep primitive: fear of failure.
As if, we really do things for success. But the brain doesn't allow you to go in that direction.
I decided to write. Write I did. It felt good but I still haven't been able to help others. How am I supposed to do that? Silence. Stillness.
I'm going to watch the coincidences and watch them build my ladder. Oh look it has already begun!